Old Me.

In the beginning:
☆ Old Reliable: 17 years old. BTVS and ATS fanatic. Loves making people laugh. Taking Pictures. I'm outgoing and talkative. Obsessed with Adam Brody and Ben McKenzie. Charisma Carpenter, Mischa Barton, Amber Tamblyn, and Rachel Bilson are my idols. I can be a shallow bitch sometimes. I get too easily jealous, and obsessive. I'm pessimistic. I can be really shy and sensitive at times. I trust people too easily, even when I know they will betray me. Easily amused. Loves cupcakes and juicy pear jellybeans. Addicted to stars and moons. Autumn is my favorite season. Favorite holiday is Halloween. Not a scary movie fan, though. My current favorite shippers are: Ryan/Seth: The O.C. Angel/Cordelia: Angel the Series. Ryan/Marissa: The O.C.¦º°•·.☆.·•°º¦


Around 19.50 to 20 years old:

I'm a McSlayer.

I want to be a photographer, work in Angel Investigations && be a radio show host.

One of my dreams is to join the "The Truth."

The other is to see Aimee Mann in concert.

I'm afraid of heights but I can ride rollercoasters.

Spiders and bugs period; creep the hell out of me.

I hate when strangers randomly touch my hair and/or me period.

I love the colors: blue, purplah and green.

Obsessed with moons, stars and the clouds/sky... etc.

I love my family and I hope they love me as well.

Tom Cruise is insane...

Vh1 is love. Especially Best Week Ever. I'd love to meet those people.

The Tenth Kingdom is POSSIBLY the best tv miniseries in the galaxy.

Umm... Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel AND Firefly are like the best Jossverse, the best VERSE in the uniVERSE.

I collect stickers, buttons, notes, photos I find online, socks, shoes, star ornaments, buffy merchandise and calenders.

Also... I'm a fangirl.

I love me some fanfic. One day when I get a house and I'm completely settled one room will be devoted to fanfic. I have that MUCH fanfic in my house. I have no life.

no words, just sighs

what does she have, that I don't have?

besides more years of sexual/physical experience?
it wouldn't surprise me.

how can you deny the idea and the offer of sex,
compared to waiting for someone,
that might or might not even give in, in the end?

is her smile better?
her face more inviting or less inviting.
could it be the dirty words she whispers in your ear...
better little lies,
than I could ever come up with?




maybe it's not the words
there might not be any words involved.
just a cold hard fuck
no apologies, no regrets
no words, just sighs.





yeah, that’s what it is.

The Saddest Landscape

we mouthed the words to all of the saddest songs because they felt like home and i watched you out of the corner of my eye and that smile you gave me launched one thousand beats of my heart. so you can lean a little harder i will take that weight from you, i will be that call in the middle of the night, the picture kept in your favorite book and if you just want someone to call yours i will be that too.

i was just looking for someone to leave me breathless and i found it in you.....
and i don't want to miss you anymore
so here is one song to call your own, to kiss away the tears and leave no traces of pain, so angelic and comforting, these are my dreams all coming true and i must have played that message one thousand times just to hear your voice before i went to sleep.